Thursday, November 30, 2006 

still

i can still see you standing there
sitting there
looking...
i see you but somethings missing
your face
it is blurry
my memory has faded
your there but who are you?
i could walk past you on the street and not know
would you know me?
can you still see me sitting there?
looking...
you made my would stand still
i never felt the stillness before or after that
i am paralized by you
stuck
trapt
help down by my memories
i can't see to let them go
solitude provokes
your words stick to me
stick to my memories
stick to my heart
still




11/30/2006 11:22:00 PM | |

 

years

its been years
lots of years
many years
what is a year anyway?
how is a year truly measured?
what difference does time make if time can stand sill and travel at rapid speeds?
for times sake its been years
many years with many places in between us
yet you still do to me what you use to do
you still have the same effect as before
the same feelings are evoked when confronted
the same?
its the same
everything else has changed
and this has stayed the same
how is that so?
how do you have this effect on me?
what is it that allows you do do this to me?
if only i knew
years mean nothing
time means nothing
time is simply a way to measure
but measure what?
time has stopped
yet we keep moving
moving together or moving apart?
moving towards each other or moving further away?
the physical distance between us is not nill
the emotional distance between us is grand
the years have drawn it out and provoke this

11/30/2006 11:15:00 PM | |

Thursday, November 23, 2006 

something

there is something about her, something i cant quite describe.
its a look
a movement
a feeling she evokes.
i didn't notice it at first, i didnt even notice her
until one day, one moment, she came into focus
there is something in her eyes
her look
her smile
her attitude, her tone
what is it?
why did i suddenly notice?
why do i care?
there is something about her



11/23/2006 09:01:00 PM | |

Wednesday, November 22, 2006 

know...

i dont know what to think
i dont know what to say
i dont know
its simple
i just dont know
i dont know why
i dont know where
i dont know how
i dont know when
but i know who
thats all i know
who?
me and you
thats who
but why?
where?
how?
when?
i dont know what to make of this
i dont know if there is even a this
i dont know

11/22/2006 09:54:00 PM | |

Saturday, November 18, 2006 

sometimes

sometimes it pops into my head,
a thought,
a vision,
a face,
a moment,
sometimes.
sometimes i see it
sometimes i feel it
i sometimes wonder why?
why i'm having theses thoughts, visions, feelings?
sometimes they are so real yet so fake
someday it will all make sense
sometimes i believe thats true.

11/18/2006 12:16:00 AM | |

Friday, November 17, 2006 

SUV's

suv's are evil... pure evil
and not just becauase they guzzle gas and spit shit out into the environment ...
or because they cause fatal accidents when if 2 cars were involved people wouldn't die...
and because they are so huge they barley fit into their lane and sometimes don't fit into their lanes at all...
picture a back road, narrow, windy, hilly no yellow line, a hummer with a tiny woman comes speeding around the corner, a sedan is trapt, no where to go, hummer wins, sedan almost run off the road, good thing the sedan driver was paying attention becuase the suv driver wasn't and couldnt have controlled the car....

suvs are evil for many reasons
many many reasons
they are only getting worse and only getting bigger
their drivers are getting smaller and smaller
and having less control and less awareness
i constantly see suv drivers doing their hair, nails, eating, talking on their phones while reaching into the backseat, reading papers, filling out papers, sending text messages and on and on and on and on... and this isnt to say that car drivers dont do the same, but there is a larger area to reach into the backseat for when your in a 12ft boat of a suv and it takes more to correct a slight drift from looking down or taking your eyes off the road when your automobile weighs 6 tons.....
the worst thing about suvs, in my opinion, is the deaths they cause
a coupe has no chance against a suv
hit at 50mph and all in the coupe are dead and the large suv people are fine, not even a scratch
evil
pure
evil


11/17/2006 08:14:00 PM | |

Friday, November 10, 2006 

Helio

if you are thinking about a new phone carrier go with Helio and order here



you wont be sorry

11/10/2006 12:18:00 PM | |

Thursday, November 09, 2006 

moving...

moo-ving...
moving on?
moving to a new place?
moving.
excitement
worry
happiness
sadness
relief.
moving on
and
moving forward
to a new place
to a new geographic location?
soon, not yet
moving forward with the remembrance of whats left behind

11/09/2006 11:06:00 PM | |

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 

ikea...

I love Ikea
the set up rooms
the individual pieces
the euro-ness
the clean look
I could move into Ikea and be content for life
yesterday I spent about 2 hours at Ikea
it was peaceful
I am Ikea-ing my house
Phase 1 out of 3 is complete

11/07/2006 08:55:00 PM | |

Thursday, November 02, 2006 

why can't i...?

why can't i...?
find you
why can't i...?
have a cool job
why can't i...?
love my car
why can't i...?
stop drinking so much coffee
why can't i...?
stop having so many questions
why can't i...?
run faster
why can't i...?
find you
thats all i really want...
i've been looking for years...
come out of hiding...
i want to talk


11/02/2006 11:07:00 PM | |

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 

long ass time...

I haven't posted in a long ass time... I haven't had the desire too, bummer right? maybe I'll start posting more often, maybe I won't... does anyone have an opinion on this ?

11/01/2006 11:49:00 PM | |

its jOs...: November 2006